L'EX BATTEUR DE NIN VOUS SOUHAITE LA BIENVENUE DANS SON CAUCHEMAR - REZNOR REPOND
03.21.2006 06:00 EST
Le projet Nearly de Jerome Dillon inspiré par un mauvais rêve recurrent.
l'ex batteur de Nine Inch Nails Jerome Dillon
Photo: jeromedillon.net
Pour la plupart des gens, un cauchemar est une chose dont on veut se réveiller et oublier. Particulièrement si ce rêve revient régulierement depuis plus de 5 ans et inclu une fille mystérieuse couverte de boue, qui vous attire au bord de l'océan et vous maintient sous l'eau jusqu'à la noyade.
Mais pour l'ancien batteur de Nine Inch Nails Jerome Dillon, ce cauchemar a été le catalyseur à son premier album solo, Reminder (sortie sur le label Kufala/La Cosa Nostra le 11 avril) qu'il a enregistré sous le pseudonyme nearLY. L'accomplissement de cet album de longue gestation a aussi été une forme de libération pour le batteur apres ce qu'il décrit comme une séparation moins qu'a l'amiable d'avec Nine Inch Nails, qui a suivi un flot de problemes de santé durant la tournée 2005 du groupe.
"Je ne parle pas a beaucoup de gens de ce rêve parce qu'il m'effraie", affirme Dillon, 36 ans, qui a commencé à faire ce cauchemar avant de rejoindre NIN en 1999. "J'ai pensé que ça pourrait être une façon de me purger de ce rêve ou de travailler à travers lui. J'ai fais un disque au lieu d'aller en thérapie."
Dillon a engagé l'ancienne chanteuse de 12 rounds Claudia Sarne pour poser une voix sur ses rêves, une collection de bruits ambiants et de collages, d'airs rock moody, accentué par des arrangements de cordes et des paroles morbides. Apres ces 6 ans de travail dans le groupe, l'album est sans surprise une réminiscence de NIN incluant un sain style goth de Siouxsie and the Banshees.
La majorité des chansons ont commencé comme des enregistrements maison 4 pistes que Dillon a posé avec une guitare acoustique et une boite a rythme durant la tournée 1999 de NIN "Ca m'a pris du temps pour réalisé que j'avais ce rêve récurrent" dit Dillon sur les visions qui ont amené des chansons sombres telles que Straight to Nowhere ou la lente et brulante All is Lost sur laquelle Sarne enveloppe de sa voix féerique et emfumée les mots "All is lost/Either Way, it's my mistake/All is lost/Ease the way to my escape".
"C'était ce rêve d'isolation mais pourtant paisible, avec cette fin morbide, moi qui finit par accepter une invitation a me noyer" expliquait Dillon, "C'était plutot gothique, ça aurait pu être un clip de Nine inch Nails".
"Apres avoir déménagé dans une autre maison à L.A, dit il, j'ai commencé à penser à faire quelque chose pour le documenter, parce que j'entendais vraiment des mélodies dans mes rêves".
Dillon gardait un dictaphone pres du lit, et toutes les nuits il fredonnait des mélodies et la premiere chose qu'il faisait le matin au petit déjeuner était de noter ses idées.
Confiant qu'il ne voulait pas chanter sur l'album, il a recruité son vieil ami, l'ancien chanteur des Afghan Whigs, Greg Dulli, pour chanter en duo avec Sarne sur la reprise des Whigs, Step into the light. En suppléments des airs évoquants son cauchemar, Reminder contiens d'autres chansons aux thème sombres : la fantomatique Prins Hendrik, inspirée par la mort du grand jazzman Chet Baker dans un hotel d'Amsterdam, alors que la chanson Mary Vincent est inspirée de l'histoire vraie d'une jeune fille de 15 ans dont le violeur a coupé les mains et les avant bras en 1978.
"Le titre de l'album couvre ce rêve, explique Dillon, mais c'est aussi sur le concept dont chacun gère les pertes, chacun à leur façon".
Une autre perte que Dillon doit continuer a gérer est ce qu'il décrit comme son expulsion inattendue de NIN. "Au cours de la troisième partie de la tournée, j'ai remarqué que je ne me sentais pas très bien. Il y a quelques années, on m'avait diagnostiqué une maladie de la thyroide et je prenais un traitement. Je ne savais pas que ce traitement ne marchait pas et qu'il s'accumulait dans mon organisme." Cette accumulation a engendré des désordres cardiaques, qui, bien que ne le mettant pas en danger de mort, l'effrayèrent suffisamment pour qu'il aille à l'hopital après un concert à San Diego.
Mais malgré un certificat de bonne santé que délivrèrent les médecins là bas, quelques shows de NIN avaient déjà été annulés. Après deux jours de tests qui permirent finalement de diagnostiquer le problème, Dillon affirme qu'il a appelé le management de NIN pour dire qu'il était prêt à repartir en tournée mais qu'on l'a reçu avec une "complète indifférence et aucune compassion pour ce que je venais de traverser" dit il. "Mon retour n'était pas accueilli à bras ouverts, ce que je n'ai pas compris puisque j'étais dans le groupe depuis 6 ans." Dillon dit que Reznor ne l'a pas appelé ou ne l'a pas contacté pour savoir si il allait bien, et ne l'a toujours pas fait à ce jour.
Bien qu'un porte parole de NIN ait dit la semaine dernière que Reznor n'avait aucun commentaire à faire sur les allégations de Dillon, un message crédité au nom de Reznor sur la messageboard officielle du site de NIN démontre le contraire.
Trent on Nin.com:
[03_21_2006]
A few thoughts / corrections on Jerome Dillon's latest press attempt to create interest in his project:
First, the facts:
I was impressed with his demos that ended up being his record.
I thought the choice of using Claudia was fantastic - I love her voice.
I did not offer to produce his record.
I did not attempt or ask to use any of his tracks for the "Tapeworm" project (which was long dead by the time I heard his music).
His recollection of the events leading to his departure from the band is once again inaccurate.
Now I venture into commentary:
Jerome continuously has to see himself as the victim in all circumstances. He lives in a world where he is always being wronged by someone or something. That could be me, that could be management, that could be his drum tech, that could be the girl who mistakenly washed his permanent press designer jeans, that could be the person that didn't cook his chicken properly before the show, or that could be the record label that wont give him tour support for his new band to play a show. On that topic, what in the hell do you need tour support for? You're a new band with no record sales yet... do what any new band does - practice in the garage, pack your shit in the car, play a goddamned show and quit whining about it.
p.s. You look like an asshole in your picture.
[03_21_2006]
OK enough!
Your 15 minutes are up!
It DID make for some interesting BB reading on an otherwise dull day, though.
But seriously, if you're going to throw some punches you may get hit back. Fuck the "high ground" - this is the internet, remember?
Charlie Clouser on Echoing the sound forum:
Good Lord, I would have thought these kids had grown up by now! You hear how TR and Jayrome going off on each other, it's like "whaaaahhh whaaahhh!". Fuck.
First off, TR don't owe me SHIT. I don't feel like I've been wronged or got a raw deal out of NIN, I motherfucking SCORED being in that band.
As did we all, as did we all........
It's been five years since I'm out, so, okay, you guys want the straight dope, here it is. (deep breath)
To Jay-rome...
Jay-rome, bro, dude...... You're a great drummer. That's cool. You might have made a really interesting record (ain't heard it yet), which is even cooler.
But, hello, ummm...... how well do you know TR, anyway? Does any of this surprise you, bro? Do you remember how it went down when various other people left the band? Weren't you there the day I left, when TR found a few things of mine still in the studio, and threw them in the freaking dumpster while I'm standing right there by my car? IN THE DUMPSTER? And all I did was shake my head and say to myself, "dude has got some issues...."
Remember, this was after I cowrote, remixed, and programmed way more shit than you ever did. Remember, I also made the live tapes? I also did the remixes on FDTS. I also programmed shit on TDS and The Fragile. I also brought Starfuckers, Inc. to the table, remember? That ain't no motherfucking bassline, fool, that's my QuasiMidi Rave-O-Lution 309 beatbox! AND those vocal fx dawg.
My reaction: "Whatever, dude. I'm out. Later for you and your harshness."
You didn't see how he fucking shut Chris Vrenna down. Goddamn motherfucking PodBoy had been with TR since the ramen-noodle years, running down to CompUSA every week to buy TR more video games, sitting there reading from the cheats book while TR played Doom for hours, never giving Pod a chance to play, and fucking sitting in the driver's seat in the studio for more than ten years. At the end of that decade, while TR is buying a fucking man$ion, he was paying Pod like $60k. All Pod wanted was a little piece of the action to go along with his salary. Like a fucking nickel off the net dollar on swag. Like maybe a point on the record. No fucking way, TR and Malm told Pod that he was now 'surplus to requirements' and put his ass in the wind. After TEN FUCKING YEARS! Pod is the one who should bitch, not you. Pod is the one that should have been singin', "We built this city on rock 'n roll, and all I got was this lousy T-shirt!".
So you wonder why he didn't call you in the hospital? Fuck, dude... TR needs to watch out for TR and the rest of you can take a flying fuck at a rolling donut, and you're just now figuring this out? You thought that since you two were best butt-buddies for a while, that you guys were gonna be bros in later years?
You're lucky they didn't pull your luggage off the bus and drop it at the hospital!
Dude, everyone who's ever been in NIN or worked for (there is no WITH) Trent has been butt-buddy at some point. We all rode shotgun in his green porsche while he talked the big talk, and we all believed it, some for longer than others.
The only reason I ever moved to NOLA was because TR told me, straight up, that he wanted me and danny to write the tracks for a Tapeworm album, on which I would get a production credit.
This was in 1995. NINETEEN NINETY FUCKING FIVE, DUDE!
Remember, I was just starting to write the first Rob Zombie album, when TR conned me into moving to NOLA on the basis of Tapeworm. I was living in 7200 square feet in Nichols Canyon, with the protools rigs of doom. My game was ALREADY TIGHT nucca.
I took a pretty major pay cut to join NIN, and the only reason was because of the fantasy Tapeworm bonus. We knew it was never going to happen years before you showed up. It became a big joke for me and Danny (but not a very funny one). Robin never believed that shit for a second, he was out of there right after the tour ended.
So, after all this, you get to say, "I used to be in nine inch nails." Isn't that enough for you? That ought to be worth something, yeah? Work that shit, homey, but don't you ever try to hold TR to his word on fantasy shit like Tapeworm or "I'll produce your record..."
He's the guy that invites you over for a bbq and gets all sullen when you take two hamburgers instead of one, but don't let it get to you. Eat both of 'em! Fuckit!
But here's the moral of this harsh story:
The important part now is to not become like him.
Shake it off, man. Deep breath. You fucking carry that bitterness for TR with you thru life, man, you will poison yourself from the inside. TR always claiming he's dark, he got a black soul, saying shit like "you know me, I hate EVERYONE!"
Ooooohhh ain't he tuff. SuperTuff. SuperDuperTuff. He so motherfuckin dark he make you look light by comparison, nucca.
Well, what if all that shit he claimin' is actually TRUE? What if he really IS that hateful person that he describes in all them dark lyrics? If he IS that guy, then he needs his head examined or removed ASAP. Man, forget that shit as soon as you can. People get what they deserve in the end, man, they reap what they sow. They get the kind of freinds they deserve.
Remember how record labels would call Nothing Records or Conservative Management looking to get me to do a remix, and Malm would make sure I never got the message? I found out about all that shit when I got back to LA, how all these fools be like, "Where you been? We been leaving messages at Nothing Records for like two years! They wouldn't give us your number, or the number at the studio in NOLA, so WTF is up with that?" And I'm like, "John MotherFucking Malm is what's up with that."
So yeah, I got fired out of there on zero notice. TR put my sorry ass in the wind too.
And I don't look back.
Would I do it all over again? Yeah, but I would have been right behind Robin on the way back to LA instead of waiting four more years for shit that wasn't ever gonna happen. That last tour we did was a joke, and you know it. Fucking TR forgetting lyrics onstage, Robin taking a swing at TR in Australia, shit I was ready to walk off stage and take a cab to the airport that one time in Japan when he just lying on stage drunk off his ass mumbling instead of singing.
Now he all on 'roid rage, he could snap me like a twig, but back then was a different story. Remember that Japanese chick with the missing teeth when we went to the temples in Kyoto? Fuck.
How many people can you name who would honestly say that they think TR has been a real friend across the years? Some of his high school buddies that come out on tour, or Clint, maybe, but that's cause they never really "worked" together. I saw Clint coming out of the dressing room at the Bowl smiling, so they obviously all good, but I wasn't even allowed to say hi to TR. I got the blockade from security! Hahahahah LoLLerskates *HUGZ* ROFL ain't that some shit?
All's I wanted to say was, "congrats on the new album, new tour, and new YOU! TR, you look TIGHT and your game is seriously ON, man, and I am psyched for you. You obviously conquered some heavy shit, and you gotta feel good, yeah?" Not like I'm gonna complain about shit from five years ago backstage, right?
Hey also, didn't I hear TR talking some shit about how he 12-stepped his way back to planet earth? Well, I ain't never 12-stepped myself, but I got a couple close friends who did, and the one thing they all said was part of the process was to go back and apologize or make amends with all who were hurt by your actions while you were under the influence of whatever you're 12-stepping out of.
Did TR ever drop one motherfucking dime? PodBoy never got that call. I know you didn't get that call.... I didn't need one, since I played his ass right back as he was playing mine, but PodBoy got the short end of the long stick. Well, maybe he only made it through 11 out of the 12 steps....... but I don't know nothing about 12 steps. (oh yeah, I am clean, but it only took one step.)
(BTW: You're better off not being in a band that plays medleys...)
Now, before y'all go thinking I feel all "wronged" by TR, I don't. I am absolutely fine with him. I sussed the deal soon enough, and it WAS a cushy situation, so I let it ride for a while, and I hung around while I got my act together to re-enter LA. Soon as I felt like he was short-changin' me, I said, "Shit, I gotta get me a night job!" Had to finish the demos for the Helmet album while still on TR's payroll, ya unnerstand? So I managed to extract value from the transaction, even if it wasn't the value I thought going in. So we cool, I know he threw my shit in the dumpster cause I was writing Helmet and remixing Zombie on his dime, but shit, man, the way I deal is to say, "don't be motherfucking remixing Zombie on my dime bitch!" right to a sucker's face instead of throwing they shit in the dumpster, run back in the studio, and change the locks.
So TR, I know you gonna see this, and hate on me, and it's cool. I know you gonna whip out the pics of me and Lifto and the carrot, or video of my "initiation" backstage in Long Island, or some other embarrassing shit. Bring it, I don't give a fuck. I got no probs with you dude and you can diss me all you want. I'm happy for ya man, you making it work big time. Plus, you're mr. artistic integrity guy, and I do cheesy horror movies, so who the fuck am I?
So you got it all over me, yeah. I ain't on your level, and I ain't never gonna BE on your level.
And all was right and as it should be in the world.....
And I am OUT. Later.
charlieclouser
Ex-NIN keyboardist
"Jay-rome will show up sooner or later and verify the reality of my non-fiction diatribe. The Japanese
chick with missing teeth in Kyoto will clue him in...
I wish I knew how to post pictures.....
BTW: flawlesserr - EXACTLY! TR is NIN, period. Learn that one good before you leave for tour...
charlieclouser
Ex-NIN keyboardist
"No, the punch was backstage. Dave Grohl and Taylor Hawkins rode into our tent on mopeds with
"Hellecasters" hoodies on, pulled up over their motorcycle helmets, and looking like bubble-head aliens.
It was a tense moment, as they were playing a goofy backstage gag, and Robin had just took a swing,
not really a "punch your lights out" punch, though it might have been had it connected.... TR didn't go
down or anything, he probably didn't even notice! They were tussling and arguing and all, and just
when it got violent, the wall of the tent blows back and in come half of the Foo's on mopeds.
Perfect fucking timing Dave. We dodged a bullet that day. It could have gotten real ugly real fast.
Robin and TR did tussle a couple times on stage on the Japan leg, but given the usual level of onstage
violence, I don't think anybody noticed. Shit, I didn't notice, and I was ten feet away! Robin told me
after what had happened and I was like, "oh, really?"
charlieclouser
Ex-NIN keyboardist
"Hey, I could have emailed Jay-Rome directly, but I knew y'all would want to see the skid marks on our underwear.
I meant that I got no probs with TR NOW. I sure as hell did back in the day. That's why I waited five years to talk smack.
Hey, I just want Jay-rome to fucking move on. You ain't heard me talk smack trying to promote any project of mine, did you? Am I trying to get anyone to come see my band? No. Am I trying to get press for my projects? Hell no, they got whole buildings full of people to do that. I'm no P.R. department, you can see how badly I'd fuck it up! Hell, you guys ain't gonna buy my shit anyway! I ain't putting out records.
Plus, my fifteen minutes is more like two hours in primetime every friday night, if ya get my drift. Those who know, know.
TR gonna come git me, I know it......
charlieclouser
Ex-NIN keyboardist
"Hey, y'all I had to change the "punched his lights out" to "took a swing at" cause Robin never
connected,
it was just a scuffle, as my girl Zoe who was there at the time reminded me...... She's the one told
Dave and Taylor to drive through our tent..... good idea she had....
BTW: Hallowedheart - That's my new Magnum SRT8 fool. 425hp at the crank. Smoke 'em if ya got 'em!
charlieclouser
Ex-NIN keyboardist
Jerome on his forum:
Submitted by becky:
after you've done what you plan on doing with nearLY, where do you
see yourself after? will you do tours with bands who need drummers? will you join a band and have an even larger contributing role in the writing/recording of the music? will you mostly be a studio musician/producer?
i don't know what the future holds and i never say never. i love to play drums...it reminds me of why i first started playing music. obviously, i will never work with nin again. after the third time of trent talking shit about me online with delusional outbursts, i finally had to respond. there is a fine line between being the bigger man and not dignifying it with a response- and just taking shit. he can say whatever he wants and attempt to line up his fans against me, i don't care. it wasn't so long ago that he was screaming at his fans online about me, calling them "internet whiners" that don't know what happened between he and i.
......let me tell you a little story....back in late 2000 i gave a copy of some of the demos for my record to trent in new orleans. two days later he came up to me in the garage on his bike (next to his green porsche) and asked to talk to me. i thought i was fired or in trouble for eating someone's leftovers out of the fridge. he said and i quote..."i listened to your stuff and i don't mean to sound like a dick...but i was surprised that i actually like it..." he then said that ideas had been generated for tapeworm (mostly by danny and charlie) and asked me if i might want to contribute. i said i was open to working with him on any level. he then said that he didn't know what would happen with tapeworm, but liked the idea of not having to sing and maybe just producing and playing bass. the reason that i remember this so vividly is because i felt validated as a writer and was excited that someone that i respected musically saw me as more than just a drummer. he never offered to produce my record. that was a misquote in my interview with mtv.
i have my flaws just like everyone else and take accountability for them- but i won't cop to the personal attacks and accusations because it's horseshit. end of story...
